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♥ Friday, June 6, 2008.

♥ Saturday, April 19, 2008.

I was blogging in multiply kanina.. but all of a sudden, Jacob pressed the restart button. So yeah, goodbye blog entry. haha. Anyway.. I was saying how much I feel happy now, I'm okay na. I really really feel so loved. haha. I know, I keep on saying that. I'm just really happy, forgive me :)

Since I'm still on a high from all these I feel so loved feeling that I have, I'mma list down the stuff that made me happy.haha.

1. I woke up with a surprise from my dad.

Okay, this is really mababaw because he just gave me money for load. haha. This made me really happy because he woke me up pa just to tell me he left some money for me to buy load. haha. Sorry na, text addict eh :)

2. Joey gave me a hug.

If you are a close friend of mine, or if we hang out often, then you'd know that I always want a hug or I'm always holding your hand or something. Yes folks, I'm a very touchy person. haha. I dunno, I just love the feeling of being hugged. Then here's my brother, the opposite of me. He doesn't like hugging me and gets VERY annoyed when I'm sweet to him. BUUUUUUT.. yesterday, he gave me a hug for no reason at all. Super sweet :)

3. Jacob can now stand up without holding on to something.

The baby's growing up so fast :( *sobs* haha. I'm really proud of him, ang yabang pa niya tumayo eh. Then he was trying to climb the bed, pero nahulog siya. And I was laughing pa. HAHA. Meeeean :| :))

4. Watching dvds with Javie.

He came over mga 4 na ata yun, and I just woke up. haha. We used the Mac to watch nalang, may popcorn pa. Yay. We were watching My Super Ex Girlfriend then got bored with it. haha. So kinulit ko siya to watch The Butterfly Effect until he gave in. haha. Omg, super love ko talaga yung movie. It's such a sad movie, but still it makes you think. After the movie, hinatid ko siya sa gate. haha. I love power strolls at night! :)

5. Forgiving and Forgetting.

We're okay na. Buti naman. I'm never the one who finds it hard to forgive, sakin kasi, isang sincere sorry lang, okay na. And that's pretty much it. Love yooou, Bads :)

6. Bonding with myself.

I pampered myself complete with body scrubs, hair spa, etc. haha. Then I watched chick flicks and rom coms all night/morning. Oh my god, I was crying sa A walk to remember half of the time. God, it's sooo sad. Ang hot ni Shane West dun. haha. I also watched My best friends wedding. Another tearjerker talaga. I was crying in a lot of scenes. It's a sad/happy movie. There were parts that were hilarious! I was laughing so hard, tas maya maya I was crying na. Crazzzzzyyyyy. The last film I watched was A cinderella story. Isa pa yan, it made me cry in some parts. Lalo na yung ending. It's such a feel good movie! So ayun, I slept at 6 am na? Haha. Then I woke up at 9. Peste. Ang aga. haha. Tapos may missed call na ako from Javie, so tinawagan ko siya. haha. K.

Those are some of the things that made me superr happy and LOVED. (k, so I just had to add that.haha). But when i was watching those movie, I can't help but long for a guy. I mean, I've been single for God knows how long, and I really want to experience how it is to be in love.. Don't get me wrong, I love being single (and ready to mingle, baby!) but sometimes I wish there's a guy who cares for me so much. Who's there to check up on me, who gives me a hug whenever I need one, who would treat me as though I'm the most important girl. For once, I want to be on the receiving end of a sweet gesture :( Okay, cheeeesy na. haha.

So yeah, while waiting for that guy to come (or rather, wait for the guy i like to realize that I'm the girl for him) I'm going to pamper myself and give all the love to myself, my family, and friends. I know waiting for him will be worth the wait :)

♥ Friday, April 18, 2008.

Mkay. So I thought the "issue" will finally be fixed last night. I confronted her na (but in a nice way, swear.) pero she was avoiding me lang. Okay na sana eh, tanggap ko na na she doesn't want to talk to me at nagsumbong siya kay Ymam. So ako naman tong gaga, I was crying nanaman last night kasi di ko talaga tanggap na ganun yung ugali pala niya. Backstabbing me and stuff :| Okay na kasi sakin yung sige, agawin mo na yung mga gusto mo, pero I can never tolerate the backstabbing part because I know that I don't deserve it. I considered her as one of my best friends, and this is what she does? Tapos she deleted me pa as her multiply contact. Tapos humahanap pa siya ng kakampi tapos binabaliktad niya yung story para maging in favor sakanya. Ano to, kampihan? Grade school? Ang childish kasi eh :| I'm sorry, but that's the truth.

So ayun, I was soundtripping nalang and texting nung madaling araw. Sheena and I were having a heart to heart talk. I was advicing her on some stuff and sharing life wisdoms (Ops. Feeling ko naman. haha) pero it was about mga 3.30 am na and bumabagsak na mata ko dahil sa maga at antok so I told Sheena to download this sng, When will it be me by Yasmeen. Tas I woke up kanina with a text from her, saying that she couldn't sleep daw and super umiiyak siya because of the song. Aww. I know, right? It's like, my personal anthem na. LOL.

When will it be by Yasmeen

(VERSE1.)
I see the couple are walkin` by
Feel like I
Don`t wanna be alone today
So glad no one can see what I hide
Deep inside
How it feels to be
The girl who never gets the right guy
Tell me why
When there`s so much I`ve got to give
I wake up reaching out in the night
Ready to hold him tight
`Til I realize
That nobody is there

(CHORUS.)
When will it be me?
When will I be the one
Somebody`s dreaming of?
When`s it gonna be?
When will I find my heart
Lyin` inside the arms
That never let me go?

I`d really like to know
When will it be me?

(VERSE2.)
My friends seem to have all the love
(Feels like love.)
Knocks on their door and walks right in
I know that I am worthy of what I`ve been wishing for
I can`t wait no more
Love`s nowhere to be found

(CHORUS.)

(HOOK.)
Feeling his tender touch
(Lying in his arms.)
Talkin` bout forever together
Givin` him all of my love
That`s been trying to break free

Don`t wanna be alone
No more
I`m telling you what I need
I want someone who loves me for me
And when will it be?
Wonder when will it be?

(CHORUS.)

I ask myself
When will it be me?

I know. It's sappy and very dramatic. What can I say, I'm a girl. haha.

BUUUUT..

I feel so much better now. Thank you, LISSY. You're always there when I need you, and you've been true to me all these years. For the pep talks and for cheering me up. I love yoooou. Thank you, SUSA. For calling me and defending me during the "status war" in Y!M. Thanks for the sarcasm, too. You know I love you :) To YMAM. for always calling me and asking if I was okay. Thank you, boyfriend. I love yoooou. haha. :) To JAVIE, for the hug. Yipee :) To APOL, for the Y!M convo we had which proved really helpful. I love you, and I miss you naaaa :) To my fellow teentalkers and kista members, who never fails to be there for me and give me advices and such. Wow, seriously, I feel so loved talaga. Haha. I feel lucky to have you in my life, guys. Thank you, thank you. :)

♥ .

I posted something on my multiply blog about someone always taking everything from me. At first, I was defending her pa.. until last night.

So I went to church, intending to join the choir because I really miss singing in a choir (We moved last January from Antipolo, so I had to leave my choir :( ) but I didn't see Javie there so I got really shy na to approach the members. So I decided to hear mass nalang. It was my first time to attend mass alone, and I loved it. I was able to really listen to the homily and I really felt at peace. I was naiiyak na dun kasi nga, may problem ako. Like the night before palang, I was texting some bestfriends to call me because I was fucking crying already, and none of them did :( So I felt really sad and I felt good when I stepped into the Church. So anyway..

After mass, I was praying pa for a while then I saw Javie, so I waited for him nalang because I was really sad na and I wanted a hug. haha. Okay, tapos he said tara na. So I was like, Saan? Tapos he told me na tuloy pala sa Sean Kingston. Thanks ah. Thanks talaga, I didn't know :| Okay, so ayun, lalo akong nalungkot and I couldn't face him na kasi I was crying. When I cry pa naman it's super unglamorous and weird. haha. Tas I was walking home alone and I was crying pa din, the guard even asked me what was wrong. I guess he thought I was harassed or something.

So I got home and I called Lissy and we talked and she made me feel better na. Thanks, Lis :) Susa was trying to call me din daw but it was busy na. So yeah, I was crying na and all, but I never got a hug :( Anyway.. haha. So I learned stuff about this so called friend of mine who's been backstabbing me all along pala. Lalo akong nadepress, I didn't think she could do that to me. Mkay. I don't wanna talk nalang kasi I'm really really hurt pa with what she did and ayoko ng lumaki pa yung issue :|

So yeah..this blog entry is super magulo and sabog.. that's how I feel today :| Oh, and Javie, if you're reading this, you owe me a hug :(

♥ Sunday, April 6, 2008.

Wee.I'm back.haha. I have to say though, time away was good. Going to Antipolo was really a good step for me to feel better.

Joey and I were picked up by Tito Jon and Tita Gigi at around 4, then we went to their house to pick up their kids :) hahaha.Then we went to Antipolo na. Oh my god, I really miss that place. After Joey got settled there, I left na to go to Apol's place. Naglalakad ako papunta dun, tapos gugulatin sana ako ni Hero pero nakita ko siya.hahaha. Buti nga :) Then ayun na, wala palang maid sila Apol so everyone was tidying up. I volunteered to be the chef, so I was in charge of all the cooking. haha. I know, fuuuun. So I was marinading and cooking lang the whole time before the mass.

Buti nalang may first friday mass nung gabi. I super miss singing with the choir and wearing my choir shirt. We weren't complete though :( So ayun, palabas na kami ng church para magpaload then umuwi na, tapos binangga ako ni Kerr :| Sinadya niya, that's his weird way of greeting me ata.haha. So there, we walked home na. It was suppppeeer fun :)

We ate then we got ready to watch scary movies na. haha. Lahat kami, umakyat. Halo-halo boys and girls. I thought mag sesleepover yung mga bos,pero di pala. haha. So ayun, we were watching Final Destination when Ge,Gellyn, Tessa, Hero, Cidkay, Janjan, and Gaby went home na. Okay. So natira nalang ako, Apol, Camae, Gladys, Jastine, Jeca, and Thea. Yipeee.haha. So ayun nga, we were watching amd stuff and I got so scared na I was hugging Camae and Jeca. haha.

Basically we watched all night, FD marathon, yo. The best,pare. I'm not a fan of horror flicks, and those movies scared the shit out of me. haha. Everyone slept na after, but me and Apol talked pa. I love heart to heart talks early in the morning! haha. We slept at 5 am then woke up at 6.30 am, no thanks to Thea and Jeca.Joke :) We had breakfast then we went up to sleep again sana, but we watched The Ring na lang. Oh my god, first time ko siya mapanuod. fuck. haha. It was the American version though. Then we watched The Ring 2. haha. Marathon much?

SENTENCE OF THE DAY: I'm not your fucking mommy!-The Ring 2

Super benta sakin eh. It was soo funny, I was saying it the whole day. We were like, "I'm not your fucking mommy,bitch" hahahaha. Then I cooked Caldereta na for lunch. They loved it!YAY. I was soo happy :)) haha. So ayun, we got ready for the choir practice.

I met up with Razien at the park nung hapon. It was my first time to meet her. We hung out lang, and it was fun. I saw my brother and the rest of the kiddos there. haha. So Razien and I talked and made chika lang, it was so much fun but bititn! Tapos she left early and I saw Mikey and Gabby in the park pa kasi they can't go home kasi may dog. They were scared, poor kids. So I brought them home and shit man, may aso nga na super nakakatakot :| So nagkaroon kami ng attempts to get pass the dog. So when they safely got home na, I went back to the practice. The dog freakin followed me and I was soo scared :| Aaaaaah. Buti nalang umalis agad :|

Apol's cute cousin Janjan is now my homiiie.haha. We were like, "Sup dawg?", "Yo my homiiee". He's soo cute :| I was paranoid the whole time because of Hero. :| haha. Nakakainis kayaaaa. So there, that was my little vacation.haha. Pansin ko lang, everytime I sleep over kila Apol, I have problems of thee heart. haha. Last time, ganoon din. They're always there for me kasi, I guess. Awww. I love yooooou :)

A big shout out to these ttalkers who made me feel better and listened to me kahit paulit ulit lang: Melissa, Grace, Kistas, Lunatics!:) Woohhooooo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKA!! I LOVE YOOOUUUU :))

xoxo
J

♥ Wednesday, February 27, 2008.

♥ Thursday, February 21, 2008.

I'm still alive and obnoxious, friends. haha. I can't reply to your texts because my phone is soo weird and it can't send messages. Tapos I haven't been answering your calls since I'm either asleep, or it's in silent mode because I want to sleep. haha. I'm sick.. pero papasok ako bukas! Kawawa naman partner ko sa turnover kung absent ako. Erm. Anyway. I guess I got sick because of the stupid geom test I've studied for.. which still had disappointing results. Ugh. When will I ever use geom? What's the point? God, my life is sooo depressing :|

Oh, and I'm joining cue by the way. I just miss theatre, i guess. Plus, I need to feel good about myself :))

P.S.

Don't you just love Gossip Girl?Aaaaaah!!!


xoxo

J